Written by Jennifer McCallson on October 19, 2015
Have you ever had a dream that you never forgot? A dream that happened years ago, or even when you were a child that you will always be able to recall. I had one of those dreams, and it absolutely changed my life forever. I like to call it my Love Dream, but ultimately it was the dream that taught me to Roll With It.
My dream started as a vision, as if I had just experienced the next few hours and then time rewound back to the present moment.
In my vision I was about to give a speech and while doing so I was assassinated. I was shot in the neck. Apparently someone did not like what I had to say.
After I realized that I had just seen the future, there was no denying that this was about to manifest. I instantly accepted it as truth, I had just seen the future, and I did not panic. My first thoughts were of my sweetheart, and my most immediate goal was to find him and talk with him.
My dream did not revolve around finding my sweetheart, I only had to look for a few minutes, he was not hard to find. My sweetheart is always there for me when I need him most. Yet, my desire to find him urgently was not because I wanted help. I needed to express something very important to him.
While I was looking for my sweetheart, my mom was following me for a while, waiting for me to address her. I knew she was there, but my priority was my sweetheart. Someone asked if I had anything to say to her? I replied that everything I have ever expressed to her was sufficient, she knew how I felt, I loved her and I had no regrets (side note: my mother and I have not had real contact in a few years….that story is for another blog). It was more important for me to talk with my sweetheart, who represents true, authentic, and pure love. He was my number one priority.
After a few more moments of searching I found my love. And when I found him I looked deep into his eyes and I spoke to his soul:
“This may not make sense right now, but I need to tell you a few things. There may be a time when I’m not here, and I want you to know that I love you. I love you with my entire heart. I have never loved anyone the way I love you, and I have never been so loved by anyone the way you love me. And I want you to know that you will always have access to me, no matter where I am. You just call my name and I will be there for you. Even if you can’t see me, I will be there supporting you always, whenever you need me. And if I am not here anymore I want you to fall in love again. I want you to find an even greater love than ours, a love that rocks your world even harder! And I want you to always be in love. I want you to feel high off the emotion of love every single moment. I want you to be in love with your job, I want you to feel in love when you are driving to the grocery store. I want you to experience the exhilarating emotion of love in every breath you take and every moment you live, because feeling ANYTHING less is a waste of time, and a waste of your life!”
And then I woke up.
I woke up sobbing. I was so touched by love. Tears of joy were literally streaming down my face. At the same time, I was completely ridding my body of the “old version” I had known of love, and allowing the new version to completely take over (this is represented in my dream through my interaction with my mom). My body did not quite know how to experience this except to purge itself of the false love of the past through tears.
If you were on a plane that was going to crash and you had 3 minutes to call someone, who would you call? Your spouse? Your child? If you had 10 minutes before the plane went down then who would you call? Your parents, spouse, and child? If you had 1 hour before you knew you were going to die THEN who would you call? What about 10 hours? What about 10 days? Why wait until the last moments to be happy and to express your love? Why wait to live in those blissful emotions?
Life definitely throws everyone challenges and obstacles, yet no one knows when their last moments will be. So why waste ANY moment being angry, hateful, sad, or resentful toward people or difficult times. When moments of doubt, pain, frustration, and perceived impossibility come your way I invite you to join with me to just Roll With It, and let love be your source of strength.